I know I look like a Smurf on my featured photo, but I just want to share a proof that I am, in fact, alive and (kind of) well.
It’s been three months since I started my job, and despite finding comfort with my daily routine, I feel like I’m still incomplete. I have long wanted to have a job where I would be able to write, but I guess it started to take a toll on me — writing for work can sometimes be so draining that I would be at a loss when it’s time to write for myself. I’ve encountered this issue while I was still doing freelance, but it was more manageable then, as I can always ‘recharge’ at home whenever I feel like it. Right now, I’m tied up with going to the office five times a week, nine hours a day, and I can’t really cure my mood shifts on a whim because I am stuck at work. Not that I am complaining — I am really thankful for the opportunity to get a stable job in a company of good people — but I just find the adjustment a little challenging, that is all.
August has been a whirlwind of sorts. The first two weeks were A-okay, with everything in check and everything going smoothly. I was doing fine at work, I manage to start eating healthy (I skipped white rice and chocolate and everything sinful), and I was able to squeeze in regular exercises. I started doing boxing and I managed to run frequently in the morning. However, after two weeks, I started to feel sick and now I’m back to being the garbage that I once was. I had myself check earlier last week, but my 2D Echo procedure isn’t due until September 10 (which sucks), so I still don’t know what the heck is causing my palpitations. I can’t force myself to go back running or boxing because I’m afraid I might faint, but I’ve been pushing myself to walk around and do my daily routine. I know whining about how I feel would never make my situation better, so I should at least do my part and help myself stand up again.
With that interrupting my (what I thought was a) great routine, I now feel slightly off balanced again. I’m not sure how to start again, but I hope that I would be able to get back at it in a little while.
ANYWAY!!! Aside from all the pity parties and what not, I was also able to bring back my reading mojo. I’ve been hooked with Pocket lately (check out the app here) which led me to read and share a bunch of articles about many, many things. I’ve been sharing them on Twitter, and I hope to keep up with it in the coming weeks.
I’ve been trying to go back to eating healthy, but since I was broke AF (medications for PCOS are damn expensive, plus my laptop charger broke down), I decided to go back on it after I get my pay for this cut-off. Hopefully, I’d be able to stick to this and feel generally good about myself. I hate being sick, but sometimes your physical body just gives up on you and you have zero excuses not to rest.
With everything happening all at once, I find it hard to go back on focusing on things. Generally, August has been okay despite all the twists. I wish I could be better at life in just one snap, but I guess I just have to take it one step at a time. ‘At my own pace’, as I’ve said before. Gotta stop worrying and better start working, I suppose.