The Sunday Currently Vol. 17


This weekend has been pretty slow. Well, honestly speaking, the past few weeks has been terrifyingly slow for me. I started a new job three weeks ago, and while the workload is something manageable, I find myself collapsing in bed once I got home, letting go (yet again) of the things that have kept me alive during the daunting five months of unemployment.

It’s funny, really. I get to write more through work, and somehow I thought that would help me magically bring back the skills that I have been looking for. But right now, I feel like I have almost forgotten how to write in my own voice. I feel like I’m struggling to tap into my deepest thoughts and try to make a sense out of the nonsensical things that just keeps running through my head. For the past five months, writing for myself has brought out a different kind of satisfaction, but right now, I just keep on pacing around, looking at the blinking cursor and hoping to God that I would end up stirring something sensible that would actually reflect what’s in my head.

In my attempt to get the gears running, I decided to churn out a quick Sunday Currently post. I hope this would be a great start to keep things going again. Wish me luck.

This Sunday, I am currently…

READING: All the Light We Cannot See. I am STRUGGLING with the book and I just can’t seem go past the fragmented thoughts that the book presents. It is interesting, and the first few chapters were captivating, but it gets tiring when you feel like you’ve been reading sneak peeks instead of the real thing. I might give up on this and just proceed to reading something else.

WRITING: this entry, and hopefully, an article assignment that I was supposed to write yesterday. It’s so hard to keep on writing when you feel like every inch of your brain is so tired of functioning.

LISTENING: to the hum of my electric fan. The gentle tap, tap, tap of my fingers to this keyboard. My phone notifications and the silence of our small home.

SMELLING: nothing. What do I expect to smell in the middle of the night, anyway?

WISHING: that my brain starts to function well again, and that I could finish more things tonight.

HOPING: to wake up early tomorrow and finally go back to meditating and running before I go to work.

LOVING: the fact that I was able to book flights for my family next year. I’ve been wanting to do it for the longest time, but I just got the chance to do it a couple of days back during AirAsia’s seat sale. We’re flying to Bohol (I’m going to Bohol this year with Mark, but I don’t mind) and I’m pretty stoked for us to have a bonding time together. I was also able to book a flight to Puerto Princesa with Mark. As of the moment, I have 3 flights coming up for 2017 (including the first overseas trip that I booked!!!), and I’m stopping myself from buying more cheap fares to save up for a huge trip by December next year. LOL. HELP.

WANTING: an iced cold cup of coffee. But obviously, I can’t, because it’s 10:50 PM and that would be pretty contradicting to my wanting to wake up early tomorrow.

NEEDING: to fix my priorities and create a strategy that would let me catch up with everything that I’ve missed (a.k.a. new Dream Shirt updates and new project that I’ve been wanting to work on).

FEELING: like all the nerve on my body is awake. I don’t know anymore.

CLICKING:

Soundcloud.com (looking for a nice background music for my new video! Naks!)

plumanisisa.tumblr.com

twitter.com

Jhanzey

A 20-something wanderlust who dreams of seeing the world and making a change. She loves to take photographs and stuffing herself with food.

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18 Comments

  • Jamie
    June 19, 2016 at 3:58 pm

    Congrats on the new job, Jhanz! Hope you get to adjust pretty soon to your everyday task. Also, see you soon!! 😀

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 19, 2016 at 5:14 pm

      Thanks Jamie!!! <3 And yaaaaas, see you soonest!

  • Jacqueline Uy
    June 20, 2016 at 1:16 am

    Hi Jhanzey! Dont give up just yet on All the Light We Cannot See! It’s a little tedious to read, but it’s very moving. 🙂

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 8:31 am

      Sige, I’ll try my best to finish it soon! Hehe! 🙂

  • Aneth
    June 20, 2016 at 2:21 am

    I’m happy that we both have jobs now! Also, where’s your first overseas trip?

    See you soon!!!!

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 8:31 am

      Kaya dapat mag meet tayo soon!!! :p Hahaha. I’m going somewhere near lang, South East Asia hahaha

  • Rea
    June 20, 2016 at 6:36 am

    Ahh kaloka ang promo fares! Hehe. Good to hear you were able to book cheap ones. I booked for me and my friends for my first out of the country trip too. When I saw the seat sale of AirAsia, I had to stop myself from booking kasi I need to save pa. Hehe. Hope you have a great week ahead!

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 8:30 am

      Yay! Where are you headed? 🙂 Enjoy!!! Hirap magpigil!

  • Jewel Delgado
    June 20, 2016 at 2:35 pm

    I really like this talaga. Like I said magawa ko nga to. hahahaha pero when? lol. 😀 YAY! For travels 🙂

    Keep it up!

    xx,
    Jewel

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 6:20 am

      Thanks Jewel!!! And yes, gawin mo na haha 😀 This Sunday, perhaps?

  • sereinure
    June 22, 2016 at 1:07 am

    Maybe you need some rest. You could find something different to do and go back to your writing. Also, adjusting may take a while and hang in there.

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 6:19 am

      Thank you! I honestly feel like I have too much things on my plate lately (carry over work from freelancing, and my current job) that I felt like I couldn’t breathe properly. I hope I could work around this soon, though! 🙂

  • Lou
    June 24, 2016 at 2:32 pm

    So much to look forward sa 2017 Ate, kakaexcite. Happy for you!!

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 6:12 am

      Thank you Lou! <3

  • Jae
    June 24, 2016 at 3:49 pm

    Congratulations on your new job, Janelle! Exciting times ahead! 😉

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 6:05 am

      Thank you Jae!!! 🙂

  • Mei
    June 27, 2016 at 2:18 am

    Finally, an update! Haha hope you could write more personal posts 🙂
    So many travels to come, so exciting! And yay for the family trip. That will be fun, fulfilling and satisfying, I’m sure! 🙂
    I have already stopped myself from booking since early this year, because priorities! Haha and I think we’ll not push through on upcoming trip this year. Sad 🙁
    Also, a new project is coming, seems exciting! Looking forward to it 🙂

    • Jhanzey A.
      June 30, 2016 at 6:04 am

      Thanks Mei! 🙂 I’ve been struggling to write the past few months, honestly, but I really really appreciate you taking the time reading my posts.

      Ok lang yan! #Adulting and #Priorities, I bet it’ll be worth it naman. Good luck and I hope you get to travel soon (kung hindi man matuloy yung this year, basta soon. Hehe!)

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