For the past five months, I worked as a freelancer. Honestly, it was one of the greatest times of my life. I was able to do whatever pleased me, and I got the chance to embrace whatever opportunities came in my way (mostly travels). Despite being broke AF, I would still hear a lot of people telling me that I am ‘living the life’, when in fact, I just spend most of my days home, trying to look for new projects that could provide me a salary that would let me live comfortably. I did live the life, but there is also a whole bunch of downside to it. For one, I couldn’t support myself, and as much as I wanted to give back to my family, I just couldn’t.
I know that most people would tell me that “money shouldn’t matter”, and deep down it doesn’t bother me as much. But I guess there will always come a time when you would need to face responsibilities and just grow up. For five months, I stayed at home, and even if I wasn’t really asking for monetary help from my parents, I felt like I was becoming another baggage. My family isn’t well off, and despite having jobs, my mom and dad still struggle to make our ends meet. There are still a lot of things to pay off, and a whole bunch of things to work on, and the least that I could do is to help them out while I still can. During those times that I worked freelance, making MY ends meet was hard enough, and providing to my family was all the more difficult. That was actually the biggest reason why I decided to leave my comfortable freelance life – so I could help out at home, and hopefully, save up for my future (a.k.a. plans of traveling and being able to live off doing what I love).
It has been almost a month since I decided to go back working and there was never an inch of regret from my decision. There are many things that I miss, but I’m still glad that I decided to take on the job. It’s nice to be able to work again with people (HUMAN INTERACTION Y’ALL), and it was also such a relief knowing that I don’t have to worry about my next pay (case in point: one of my clients didn’t pay me for the work that I rendered doing their social media). It’s challenging to adjust to the current set-up that I’m facing, but I’m getting by. Although, I must admit, I miss writing blogs and writing things just for myself.
For those who don’t know, I am currently working as a communications associate for a BPO company. Most of what I do is writing copies and articles for different projects, which is quite different from my previous line of work (marketing and advertising). I do write, and most of my freelance gigs are actually writing for corporations, but it still feels different to do it as a full-time profession, something that I would have to work on 8-hours a day, inside an office. As much as I hope I’d do great, the job can be sometimes overwhelming, and I feel like I’m struggling to find words to create something substantial. I am also having a hard time coming up with blog posts, as I feel exhausted and drained once I get home. In fact, I had to edit this post entirely because I felt like I’ve written it so poorly. I have so many things to share, but my brain could only do so much. I’m still hoping that I’d be able to fit things to my schedule and I hope that I could still get by with all the happenings in my life.
Being back on the corporate job after months of freedom is actually refreshing. I’ve only been at it for only a month, but it did make a lot of difference, making me realize how much I should give back to my parents, and how much I need to actually focus on my future. Not that I’m settling down anytime soon, but I just feel like it would be great to actually invest on things and make plans for the next five years (or the next three years, at the least). I don’t want to end up working and achieving nothing. Aside from the monetary support that I get from work, I guess it’s also a great way for me to pick up more learning from people who has been in the industry for a long time. There are still so much to discover in the industry (and in communications and branding), and I feel like I’m a sponge that’s ready to absorb whatever is out there.
As much as I miss being ‘free’, working in the corporate set-up still has its perks. Sure, I don’t plan to be a corporate slave forever (I work best when I feel free), but I guess working freelance is out of the picture for the next couple of years. With my recent realizations on life and family, among other things, I feel like I needed to work and learn from my experiences first before I go back to doing what I love. So help me, universe.
How about you guys? What have you been up to? So sorry for the lack of replies, I promise to get around it soon!