On Leaving My Freelance Life

For the past five months, I worked as a freelancer. Honestly, it was one of the greatest times of my life. I was able to do whatever pleased me, and I got the chance to embrace whatever opportunities came in my way (mostly travels). Despite being broke AF, I would still hear a lot of people telling me that I am ‘living the life’, when in fact, I just spend most of my days home, trying to look for new projects that could provide me a salary that would let me live comfortably. I did live the life, but there is also a whole bunch of downside to it. For one, I couldn’t support myself, and as much as I wanted to give back to my family, I just couldn’t.

I know that most people would tell me that “money shouldn’t matter”, and deep down it doesn’t bother me as much. But I guess there will always come a time when you would need to face responsibilities and just grow up. For five months, I stayed at home, and even if I wasn’t really asking for monetary help from my parents, I felt like I was becoming another baggage. My family isn’t well off, and despite having jobs, my mom and dad still struggle to make our ends meet. There are still a lot of things to pay off, and a whole bunch of things to work on, and the least that I could do is to help them out while I still can. During those times that I worked freelance, making MY ends meet was hard enough, and providing to my family was all the more difficult. That was actually the biggest reason why I decided to leave my comfortable freelance life – so I could help out at home, and hopefully, save up for my future (a.k.a. plans of traveling and being able to live off doing what I love).

It has been almost a month since I decided to go back working and there was never an inch of regret from my decision. There are many things that I miss, but I’m still glad that I decided to take on the job. It’s nice to be able to work again with people (HUMAN INTERACTION Y’ALL), and it was also such a relief knowing that I don’t have to worry about my next pay (case in point: one of my clients didn’t pay me for the work that I rendered doing their social media). It’s challenging to adjust to the current set-up that I’m facing, but I’m getting by. Although, I must admit, I miss writing blogs and writing things just for myself.

For those who don’t know, I am currently working as a communications associate for a BPO company. Most of what I do is writing copies and articles for different projects, which is quite different from my previous line of work (marketing and advertising). I do write, and most of my freelance gigs are actually writing for corporations, but it still feels different to do it as a full-time profession, something that I would have to work on 8-hours a day, inside an office. As much as I hope I’d do great, the job can be sometimes overwhelming, and I feel like I’m struggling to find words to create something substantial. I am also having a hard time coming up with blog posts, as I feel exhausted and drained once I get home. In fact, I had to edit this post entirely because I felt like I’ve written it so poorly.  I have so many things to share, but my brain could only do so much. I’m still hoping that I’d be able to fit things to my schedule and I hope that I could still get by with all the happenings in my life.

Being back on the corporate job after months of freedom is actually refreshing. I’ve only been at it for only a month, but it did make a lot of difference, making me realize how much I should give back to my parents, and how much I need to actually focus on my future. Not that I’m settling down anytime soon, but I just feel like it would be great to actually invest on things and make plans for the next five years (or the next three years, at the least). I don’t want to end up working and achieving nothing. Aside from the monetary support that I get from work, I guess it’s also a great way for me to pick up more learning from people who has been in the industry for a long time. There are still so much to discover in the industry (and in communications and branding), and I feel like I’m a sponge that’s ready to absorb whatever is out there.

As much as I miss being ‘free’, working in the corporate set-up still has its perks. Sure, I don’t plan to be a corporate slave forever (I work best when I feel free), but I guess working freelance is out of the picture for the next couple of years. With my recent realizations on life and family, among other things, I feel like I needed to work and learn from my experiences first before I go back to doing what I love. So help me, universe.

How about you guys? What have you been up to? So sorry for the lack of replies, I promise to get around it soon!

29 thoughts on “On Leaving My Freelance Life

  1. I hope you’re enjoying your corporate job! I just recently graduated and hired for a job and I’m still adjusting. Lol

  2. Welcome to the corporate world, Jhanz! We shouldn’t be corporate slaves forever, so let’s save up for our passion projects. 🙂

  3. Good luck on your next step. To be honest, I would prefer a corporate job before taking a leap of faith for freelancing. Nothing wrong with freelancing or anything, but in my current situation, a corporate job will help.

  4. Freelancing is definitely not for everyone. But it’s cool that you got to try it!! I’ve been homebased for more than a year now and I don’t see myself going back to any kind of corporate job lol

  5. That’s a big step right there! We’re in opposite positions though. Here I am, stuck working for my parents while craving a life of my own. 🙁
    I’m sure you’re doing it for the right reasons so good luck on your endeavors! 🙂

  6. That’s a big step right there! We’re in opposite positions though. Here I am, stuck working for my parents while craving a life of my own. 🙂
    I’m sure you’re doing it for the right reasons so good luck on your endeavors, Jhanzey! 🙂

    PS. I’m sorry for the first comment, I was bloghopping and got confused over the names among different tabs opened. 🙁

  7. Last year I was a freelancer for 3months and then started to go back to officebased work in July last year. Then I took a leap again last April this year and im back in freelancing. I think I will be back again on August. There’s nothing wrong about being at home working (tho I had a chance to work in SG for a project as a freelancer, but didnt like it) anyway, we all need a break from corporate world and not afraid to lose our job because we can manage to work as a freelancer, but yeah i agree that working in an office can help us with our govt benefits and you know yourself that you have income sureball yun! 🙂 Great post jhanz! I really like your blogposts about your career life talaga eh. Have fun!

  8. It’s really inspiring and admirable to see how much you’ve sacrificed to help your parents. I hope that corporate life will treat you well and that you’ll still be able to find the time (and energy!) to write.

  9. It is still much better to work in a company rather than at home, I think. Well there are pros and cons in both but it still best if you have interaction with other people and of course, you’ll get to learn more from the people around you. And don’t forget the salary every 2 weeks! Haha! I, too, wanted to be a freelancer but it’s much harder to look for a freelance job on the net. Definitely no easy task.. Oh well, glad you got a job now. 🙂

    April | abrilrodeya.com ♡

  10. I already resigned in my current job and position as a Team Leader in a BPO company. I’m starting to apply for freelance jobs already but I’m also eyeing a position in a government agency. Hehehe. Go with the flow ang peg since I have to earn for me and my family 🙂 Good luck Jhanz and hopefully you can still find some time to travel and unwind every once in a while. Writing can be stressful 😐

  11. Hey welcome back to the corporate world! It’s not the most fun of all jobs but hey… Responsibilities. Personally, I’m working extra hard right now so I can leave my job after my wedding and do more writing and freelance work… I kinda want to also do homeschooling for when I have kids na so I need THAT MUCH time. xD

  12. I have been working as freelance for the past years, it has been tough and fun at the same time. Though lately I have been wanting to be in a corporate set-up as I believe I would learn a lot and it would offer the stability that I need.

    – Tricia Willa | Eccentric Earthling

    1. I guess it really depends on one’s preference. Either freelance or corporate work are both challenging anyway! Thanks and best of luck for you as well. 🙂

  13. Thanks for your honesty! I’ve never lived a freelance life but you don’t often hear about why people decide not to do it anymore. All the best!

  14. Welcome back to the corporate world Jhanz! I have been envying my blogger friends who are freelancers as well because they can attend any events as much as they want while I’m here in the office looking at their photos. Haha. But I was told by them na freelancing is never easy. Yes it pays big bucks but just like in the corporate world, you have to work your ass off to have big clients. Haaay in short, walang madali sa buhay. HAHA

    xx, Wandering Ella

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