I haven’t been around for the past couple of days, pretty much because I have been trying to find myself YET AGAIN. But this time, I decided to let go of writing, as weaving words have been a struggle for me. It’s honestly one of the most depressing things that could ever happen in my life — I thought that I have lost it, I thought that I have forgotten how to do something that I immensely love — but here I am, I made it through, and I’m back with a renewed faith on my first love.
The past few days, I’ve been trying to touch base with my life. I’ve been slowly dissecting some of my choices, looking at it piece by piece, hoping to find whatever’s broken, and wishing to put them back together with all my might. I am letting go of some things in my life, and I’m trying to embrace new challenges that I’ve posted for myself, with the hopes of renewing the energy that I have long stopped tapping.
As my first step towards this renewed faith, I am creating a life lately post, just so I can share some of the things that are happening in my life. Also, I hope that this would get me going to creating more content in the coming days. It’s not easy, but I guess it will never be anyway. Here go the things that I’ve been up to the past few days! 🙂
- Going on the Bloodrush Experience and meeting wonderful people who are also pursuing creative endeavors. A couple of weeks ago, I decided to sign up for Sofia Cope‘s and KK Nerva‘s Bloodrush Creative Retreat. I was a bit hesitant at first, thinking that I might not be a good fit, that the fee is too much for my meager freelance salary, and that I might end up being an awkward wallflower. I am so glad Inah also decided to sign up, which gave me the push that I needed to put my act together and just go with it. By the time that we started our session, I realized that I was in the right place, that my money was well worth it, and that my heart was at its happiest. We did yoga, meditation, workshops, a bit of talk, and ate our heart out on vegetarian meals (something that I am never accustomed to). It also pushed me to bear my soul, to show my vulnerability to strangers who turned to friends, and to keep on believing in the greater good. I didn’t have many photos during the retreat as I really wanted to live the moment and let go of my blogging duties, something that I am so used to. Although I might still write about it if I have the time. Let’s see.
- Casting my vote and hoping for the best! I am not the type of person who pours her heart out on social media, sharing passionate thoughts about the elections and all the dirt surrounding it. I felt like these platforms have been crowded by supporters trying to bring each other down, with people giving off all the hate to each other’s presidential bets, and trying to pin down the media for their “biased” interviews and news releases. It was unhealthy to add up to the chaotic war zone that is the internet, so I kept myself mum, trying to show support to my bets Miriam Defensor-Santiago and Leni Robredo during the (not-so-intellectual) debates and discussions, or whenever it seems fit. As of the moment, the votes are being tallied, and much to my dismay, Miriam came in last from all the presidential candidates. I knew it was bound to happen, but it was a bit sad seeing her being toppled over like she never stood a chance against her opponents. Either way, I don’t regret giving my one vote to Miriam, and I still believe that I made the right choice. Leni Robredo is still a bit behind Bongbong Marcos, and I honestly wish that she wins this election. I have a long list of reasons why I don’t want Bongbong to win, but let’s save that for a healthy discourse over coffee or beer, rather than a long ass rant on this blog. (If you want to see my unfiltered thoughts on the elections, you can read through my twitter.) Let’s just say that Bongbong isn’t the best person to handle such position and that Leni deserves all the votes and support that she can get because she proves to be one of the most trustworthy and humble politicians today. Whatever happens, I still love my country, even if there are times when it would’ve been easier to just pack my bags and leave. I still wish for the best.
- Arriane Serafico‘s 10 Days of Respark Challenge. As another way of pushing myself to my goals, I signed up for Arriane’s 10-day challenge, which gave us prompts and exercises to understand more about our goals and how to achieve them. We are currently on day 3 (I’m still catching up!), and I’m excited to push myself into more progress in the coming days. I look forward to seeing my inbox every day because of this challenge, and I hope that I would finally be able to create a sustainable business model for my online shop.
- Reopening The Dream Shirt! As some of you may know, sometime in 2013, Mark and I decided to open up a small online shop called The Dream Shirt. Creating statement tees for bookworms, we were able to sell a bunch of shirts and even stage an event prior to our indefinite hiatus last year. I was devastated to let go of the shop and to not take any orders for the past months because of work, but this time, I have decided to bring it back and create a better game plan for it. The shirt shop has been a personal dream, and even if it had brought me pain and tears in the past months, I still believe that it has a lot of potential that I don’t want to waste. I am opening orders today (May 10), and will hopefully release new designs sometime within the week. My workload is still a lot, and I often find myself drowning in them, but I hope that I’d be able to catch up soon and swim away from the deadly currents. Wish me luck.
- Going back and trying my hands on journaling. I decided to try 30 days of journaling, and despite skipping days (especially during those times that I don’t feel like writing… which is most of the time), I am proud to say that I somehow manage to keep up with it. I plan to print out prompts for the coming days, just so I could keep myself going, and to hopefully bring my brain on producing content that are worth reading.